My hopes are gone.

I'm having tea rush now, I can't get to sleep. On the phone with bbgz. Everything's gng wrong @the same time. Friendship relationship, I don't know how long I can hang on. I feel so guilty for being the cause of every damn thing. And I'm sorry to you baby idk wht's got into me. I feel so helpless now I wish I can just turn the clock back, I wouldn't hv dragged all of you into this. Things just fall out altogether, i feel like giving up on everything. I've let everyone down. I've caused so much pain to all of you. Thanks bitch, you fucking spoiled my mood and ruined everything. You screwed me upside down you drove me mad. I give up, you win. I admit defeat. Just stop everything, please. Give me a break. It's killing me.

I'm sorry for everything. I don't know what more to say anymore. This relationship. It was once broken. I thought we could put the pieces back, but I'm wrong. It's not easy. It's hard to restore a broken relationship and I get why now. Once it's broken I guess it can never be back to how It used to be anymore. I don't wish to see things fall apart. I'm tired I swear I really am. I don't know how to go on from here. This relationship. I'm sorry I'm the cause of all this unhappiness. I'm sorry for everything and spoiling your mood. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to say. I'm just sorry. I love you.