Got backy my lappy today hehehehe. Got $10 dollars each from bran and sharelyn for passing my poa as an encouragement and reward. :D Hehehehehe feel so motivated now. Likea happy girl! And I feel so desperate for cash right now after looking @blogshops. So many things i wna get!!!! :( Sad life. KTHANKSBYE!
Sometimes i wish you would fight harder when i'm mad. I know it was partly my fault but your actions just rlly make me mad. I know i promised to give in and such but certain things i rlly can't let it go. It just reminded me so much of wht happened between me and my dad which i'd never thought anyone would use such a way to treat me except him. Maybe i've mad you angry, but wht you did had really hurt me. Not physically but mentally. And what hurts even more, you didn't bother to fight on for my forgiveness. Maybe i don't deserve it at all to you. I guess you should know the feeling of fighting for some1 forgiveness despite the person being cold to you. Tht's how i've been feeling, how hard is it to 'hong' you despite you giving me the cold replies. I have never given up when you were mad. But you did. You just walked out of the cab. Standing there watching you walk away hurt so much and left me in tears. I apologise for making you mad to wht you tot i gave you attitude. Maybe things between us can never stay constant, i thought things were changing for the better but i guess i was wrong. I guess this is just how fragile our relationship is, how much i'm worth to be fought for forgiveness. How much you rlly am able to give in and put down your pride. I really don't know. Thanks for the past 3days. You've rlly made me v happy with things gng so perfect for us. I just wish i would mean more to you like how you mean to me. I haven't given up on us. I am just tired of always making the 1st move. I'm always right here loving you no matter what happens. I'm sorry bb, i love you.
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