Home early today, made a fucking big joke when reporting sick today. It's been so long I laughed so hard. I pretended to be a mother until cmi fail until fucking funny. I've no mood to study anymore I don't see a point in wasting my time in class so went out of schl. Canceled trip to town tml, low cash + no mood. I'm so tired now. Some things on fb just spoilt my mood again and I feel like I'm breaking down soon. I slept @3plus upon drinking tea last night. Going to catch some sleep now, and hopefully I'll be able to sleep tonight! Goodbyez.
I have made it clear to him and we agreed to be strangers when he's out. I'd do anything for you and I hope this prove enough my love for you. That's all I can do, if it's not enuf than i'm sorry i just ain't. It just pain me so much walking by you like we're just strangers. But i guess you would be better off this way. I finally know how fragile this rs is. You told me I would have broken up with you if it were to be me. Why haven't you thought of all the things that could have made me just give up but I didn't? I fought so hard through all the pain, I stayed on despite everything. And my feelings stayed strong thru it all. But you chose to give this up. I admit I have changed ever since the start of this week. But I really can't just forget everything. I need time, I'm a human too. I hate myself like how you hate the way I am. I wish I could block off everything and not let it affect me. But I can't, I love you so much these things get in to me and get me down. And I wished you'd the patience you promised me, I wished you stayed on to give me time to change. and I wish..... you didn't leave like you promised..... But why don't you think back of how much I've been changing the past few weeks for you? Is this nothing to you compared to a few days of changes? I guess you would never understand. You gave me up and left me broken. I never thought we would end. Part of me just wish I could turn back time and avoid all this from happening, but another part of me just feel like letting all of this go's the best for us. I believed so hard we would make it to the end. I never thought we would end this way, I guess we're just not meant to be. I love you so much. But i'm starting to believe that we would be better off this way. You can go on without me, and one day I will too. I guess it's all over now. Lastly, I loved you wholeheartedly.
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